Monday, July 17, 2006

"7 Stitches and the Dumb Things Dave Does on a Bike"


It was sometime in October of 2004 and I was living in Boulder, bussing and biking it to UCD for my BFA degree in Photography. The fall semester was packed with 15 credits and twcie a week I had very long days. I would get up around 6AM to be ready to get the bus that left at 7 and arrive in LoDo around 8. Class started at 8:30 but we could get in at 8 to work on projects and check e-mail. I had a class at noon and then my last class was 7-9:45PM in the drawing studio. If I got out of that class on time I could catch the 10PM bus back to Boulder, then with a short bike ride I was home by 11:15 or so.

I don't recall exact details or reasons why Mike and I were drinking beers and throwing back whiskey. Probably because we are guys and felt like we were still living in Vail. I remeber getting to bed by midnight and waking up with a moderately shitty feel. I spent 45 minutes on the bus trying to read and put my day together, figuring out how to be most productive and agonizing over the 16 hour day that lay ahead.

I got off the bus at 15th and Wynkoop and started pedaling my standard route to school. I approaced the intersection, a "T" that contained 4 lanes of traffic traveling from my right to left and I was on the vertical part of the "T" that is a two lane multi-directional street. 3 of the 4 lanes were packed with cars at a standstill. I pedaled through them and as I reached the 3rd lane I looked behind the big white van and saw nothing so I proceeded.
Have you ever had an out of body experience? Neither have I and this was nothing like it. However, in a split second I heard the tires skreech as my head whipped to my right. I didn't say to myself, instead myself said to me, "You're FUCKED!" Then I replied, "I know."

There was a little Honda Accord too low for me to see. She was in the 4th lane, the turning lane that was almost empty and moving quickly. I woke up on the grass in between a tree and a street sign that managed to stay out of my flight path. I stood up and walked around in circles, running my hand through my hair to check on the reason for the pain in my head. It had been a long, long time since I've felt coarse hair interlaced with blood...lot's of it too. It's a feeling that is hard to describe. The blood starts to congeal right away, and the hair around the wound gets sticky. You know what has happened, so you pull your hand in front of your face. Based upon three bloody fingers, a palm full of blood and no signs of broken bones or any other bleeding I figured I was going to be ok.

I think Homer and I have the same affliction, it's called Homer Simpson Syndrome. We were both born with an extra thick skull. Did you see that episode? Dr. Hibert said, "I could wallop you all day long with this surgical 2x4 and it wouldn't do anything ha, ha, ha." As the youngest of 4 my mother was pretty desensitized to my accidents after the anxiety Kathy, Mike and Rich put her through. I'll have to check with those 3; I don't think any of them received any kind of laceration to their mellon. I find it hard to believe that as the only family with a pool and a trampoline on our block we were not struck with more injuries or lawsuits. The layout of the yard only permitted for the trampoline to be placed next to the pool. Does anyone see where this is going????

Dave's ER History
1. Brother Mike and brother-in-law Gary were pushing me on the tire swing in our backyard. Not sure of my age or the number of stitches I recieved but I was young. They were trying to see how high they could push me and kept pushing harder and harder. I had my legs through the center of the tire and I was holding on to the rope. The last push was too much and my skinny arms couldn't take the G-force. I let go. The back of my head bounced along the ground that was full of tree roots. "Hamot Medical Center, can I help you? Yes Mrs. Engle, bring him in. The staff hasn't seen him in a few weeks and were wondering if he was alright."
2. I walked next door to say hi to my "friends". I can't remeber who the kid was but he cracked me in the head with the claw end of the claw hammer.
3. High school was probably the most dangerous time in my life, or the years in Vail, or the summer of '82...let's just say it's always dangerous for me. It was a fantastic weekend loaded with go-karts, pool cues, beers, one really fast Camaro and of course...stitches in Dave's head.

To be continued.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Artist Statement: Isolation #1


It is easy to survey this image and take note of the four distinct subjects contained. Several connotations can be applied here in the aspects of loneliness, solitude, isolation, independence or seclusion. The remote nature of the image and its barren landscape with gray and dull tones produce a mystery about desolation. A single silo stands out in front of an overcast, cloudless, bizarre atmosphere. A situation in which less actually produces more due to the minimal color scheme and apparent focus of subjects.
These images in this series are related in the idea that single subjects stand out and are often isolated to give a meaning of single-ness. It is left up to the imagination if the single-ness represents a sense of independence, despair, loneliness, freedom, seclusion or gloom. The thought that has these different meanings gives this image a multiple contextual facet. Independence is a trait that often gives the impression of confidence, strength, assurance and power to name just a few. But on the other hand, looking at this image as an example of loneliness, which it is easier to view that way, the work leans to that gloomy side of loneliness with the barren foreground and bleak background.
The solo tree and rock support the scheme of isolation as those two subjects are highlighted. The juxtaposition of the solo subjects and their distance from each other give more clues to the bleakness contained here.
Although it is difficult to come to a conclusion as to what this image represents, there is no definitive answer, however, the idea of isolation has a permanence but with no allusion to a positive or negative denotation.
The process for creating this particular image became apparent the moment I noticed the scene. However, it was not until I had come back to it several times that I knew what the finished image would represent. My work is formed in two methods. The first is that I notice something and know what I can do with it almost instantaneously. The second is noticing a scene and capturing it because there is something intriguing there. I am not sure why or what there is about it, but as I come back to the image over and over the message begins to unravel itself. I find that this process produces imagery that is more thought provoking and meaningful.
Above all, I craved to seize the whole essence, in the confines of one single photograph, of some situation that was in the process of unrolling itself before my eyes. -Henri Cartier-Bresson

Artist Review: Christain Boltanski

Christian Boltanski was born September 6, 1944 (Liberation day for Paris) in Paris. A Jewish father and his Catholic mother raised him; they divorced while Christian was very young. His father, being Jewish, spent a portion of the war living underneath the floor of the house they lived in. He did receive the knowledge of both religions growing up but primarily it was Judaism that is influential in his works. He chose Judaism and considers it a privilege to belong to that faith (but what religion does not believe in the same thing?). He considers that choice the most important choice of his life, even more important than choosing one parent over another. He openly admits to a “strong Jewish component” in his work; I think that is obvious. Not only is it his religion but also the fact that he is a post WW II child that had so much to do with his work. Although it wasn’t until his later years that the Holocaust images really began to be part of his style. Christian left formal schooling and began painting at the age of 14; even though his path has taken him to other styles of art (sculpture, photographer, film maker) with numerous mediums, he still and always will consider himself a painter. It wasn’t until the late 1960’s (he was 25 or so) that his works really began to become noticed, his personal notebooks relating to his childhood were publicized and short avant-garde films brought the public to know Boltanski. At the end of the sixties he moved towards his own past. Looking for something other than painting that would express his childhood. “I began to work as an artist when I began to be an adult, when I understood that my childhood was finished, and was dead. I think we all have somebody who is dead inside of us. A dead child. I remember the Little Christian that is dead inside me.”
-C. Boltanski.
Society has a fantastic way of creating the operating values of those people that live in that society. Freud believed that innate qualities were instrumental in people’s personality development but society was a major factor. He said, “Give me four children; and I will make one of them a doctor, one a killer, one a sanitation worker and one a politician”. Boltanski had so much personality to work with considering the time he began to develop his ideas. Much of his work has political influence focused of historical events but I believe the majority of it is derived from his religious views. However, society had a great deal to do with producing this particular artist. He grew up in a world that had just seen millions of people killed; it was still very fresh in his eyes and the world. It still has an impact on us today but not so relevant as it was to a Jewish man in the late 50’s and early 60’s. His works have this idea of absence, death (but on an indirect graphic scale), darkness, sense of loss, history and memories. Much of his work is similar in shock value as is David Levinthal, another Jewish photographer whose works are influenced by Nazi Germany and the Holocaust. They both use the images of dark black and red to represent the Nazi’s and the horror, brutality and darkness that persisted for years. Levinthal is a bit more colorful; Boltanski tends to use earth tones and grays to produce a somber and desperate feeling. It reminds me of communist military uniforms. They relate to personal interest in many of his works along with a generalization to the human experience. It doesn’t matter if it’s a photo of one person or the old clothes from a hundred people; the magnitude of the feelings he issues is still the same. Especially with his Holocaust works, it only takes one distorted photo of a Jewish schoolgirl in Vienna circa 1938 to reconstruct the horror in Europe that took place in a matter of 6 short years. Boltanski was sent thousands of these photos from all nationalities of people who lost loved ones in the war. It wasn’t that he was trying to bring that one person to attention, but the idea of what happened with all those people.
He uses the idea of repetition in most of his works to enforce points. Repetition of clothes (similar to clothing depots in concentration camps), photos of people, candles, light bulbs or masking tape crosses. It leads the viewer into a sense of larger numbers, that his works are connected to a grander scale.
Relating to the darkness of his photos are the eyes of the Holocaust victims. The majority of the time they are very dark so that you cannot see them. I think he does this for a variety of reasons. If you see photos of the victims in or after the concentration camps they have an abnormal physical shape. The cavity of the eye socket seems deeper, which creates a shadow and darkens that area. Is this his way of for-shadowing the victim’s future? The other idea I have is that they say the eyes are the windows to the soul. When you see those concentration camp victims, they have no energy, life force or feeling. They are oblivious to their surroundings. Once the will to live is gone does that mean the soul is gone too? Or is Boltanski relating to the soul of his people that was almost completely exterminated in those few short years? His works have an incredible amount of weight, heavy with intangible values; they tend to stick in the mind.
A few of the reasons I believe Boltanski has his style is in part due to his religious beliefs, what world society had to deal with because of a few madmen, what Boltanski wants to remember himself and what he wants the world to remember. I don’t think anyone wants to see it happen again that is why we need to be reminded of it. War seemed to be one of his major influences
I’m not sure why I see so many war movies recently. I wonder if it’s because of the world’s current state of events or is it because Hollywood is trying to remind us of the horrors of war. Or are they just getting the public fired up for a “good-old-fashioned-American-ass-kicking” in the Middle East. Regardless, I run across them while I’m channel surfing or I notice them on my web page TV listings. I don’t think I really ever considered film to be art, or at least a specific type of art. It always struck me as entertainment. I’m not saying that it is not art, but there is so much out there that is strictly meant for box office smash. It’s more television than it is art. Or maybe it’s just that I haven’t seen an “art” type movie in my career. I think the Red Hot Chili Peppers will always be musicians but since I recently saw their latest video, it looks like they are moving into performance art.
Boltanski uses several types of objects in his work. Gauze, sugar, photos, clay, paint, cardboard, clothing, thread, corks, lights, shadows, tin boxes, wire, etc. He has a fantastic way of using lights to both create shadows and imply darkness in photos or sculpture. He will also use lights on the art or to surround it. He had an exhibit in an old church once and the only lights were from the artwork. Not only do you get the darkness feel from his work but now you get it from the church. Even stranger is the exhibit takes place in a religious institution. He uses several types of lights, not your conventional GE 40 watt Soft White. I thought the light bulb idea was great. Most people think of a light bulb attached to a light with a shade. Boltanski would use cords of all lengths with a few specific colors, a light socket and a bulb, that’s it. He will use smaller bulbs with no coatings to produce a harsh light. Candles have also worked well for him since they add that cold mystic, like a vigil is taking place. It accentuates the feelings of absence. His use of personal possessions connects the viewer to that person or event. It brings them closer to what Boltanski is trying to say.
I think Boltanski got kind of lucky with his art. I’m not trying to say that he is not talented but for the work he was doing at the time there were not that many people doing that style of work. I make this comparison with Ansel Adams, he was one of the first of his kind to do the photographs like he did because he was a pioneer in that field. He found something that he took an interest in and decided to commit a lifetime of work to it. Since no one else was really doing it, he stood out. Not just because he was one of the few but also because he was fantastic at it. I just think that it is difficult in today’s market to come up with something fresh because so much of it has been done before. You basically have to parallel someone else’s style, but then people say you are stealing ideas. I’m not stealing; an artist that I have chosen to follow is influencing me. Yes my work may be similar and even perhaps duplicated, but does that make it “no good”?
For his works relating to the Holocaust Boltanski received several thousand photos from European Jews that lost family during the war. I’m not sure how he was able to obtain so many, but in interviews the description of his studio was pretty messy. Boxes of photos stacked on top of more boxes, clothing strewn throughout. He did manipulate the photos, many times darkening the areas around the eye cavity to get a darker feel. He was trying not to make you feel as though you were looking at an individual but more importantly that you understood you were witnessing an historical event. The use of repetition helps accentuate his work. Stacks of tin boxes holding personal memorabilia, numerous photos in one display or thousands of articles of clothing demonstrate his point.
A few of his favorite pieces to me are the photos of Holocaust victims with lights. Most of the photos are head shots, I believe he did this so it had more of a personal appeal even though that contradicts his theory of trying to express the darkness on a grander scale; seeing one of those victims brings to mind what happened to millions. This leads me to believe he has the ability to express two very strong ideas simultaneously in the same piece of art.
His works are not permanent by any means. Clothes are often donated to charity or people can pay a small sum of money and stuff a bag full of whatever they want. They see it as buying art. Maybe they take it home and hang it on the wall or wear it for all I know. But possessing a piece of clothing from one of his Holocaust works would be very cool. Photos fade and light bulbs burn out. He has said that when that happens he will return to fix the work. His mentality is that the curator has not bought a piece of art but rather an “idea”. He will often use pieces from one work of art, that has been taken apart, and use it in another. He does not see the studio as his place to work; in fact he doesn’t like it there. After a while of being stuck in the studio it helps him imagine other places that he will use to inspire and create. He alludes to the artistic method as a coming and going. He sounds like he mumbles under his breathe and paces around his studio waiting for inspiration. It’s something you can’t make happen, but when it does present itself you had better be ready. He gives me the impression of an artist going mad due to lack of creativity or not being able to produce work that is acceptable. It seems like his work is heavy on his mind a lot of the time.
So what is Boltanski trying to say in his work? I think he wants the world to remember war and what its outcome has been. Yes it was tragic what happened to his people, it was a factor of that war. Was there any good that came from that war? Is there any good that comes out of any war? I think that yes, there is. Yes I would like to avoid war in most cases but that does not always happen. Sometimes the only thing certain people understand is violence and power. Someone has to be there to put that opposing power in it’s place and restore freedom and balance. Considering the current state of world affairs the If these people can’t get along with the rest of world society than they should be forced to. If it’s up to the USA and its European allies to take care of that than so be it. Jealousy and envy seem to be one of the driving forces for the Middle East. What kind of mentality is it that you would want to inflict cowardly acts of violence upon someone because they have a better life than yourself? I know there are other reasons but why do so many people hate the US? Like I said, one of the reason’s is because of our freedom and because we are a great nation. Anyway, my rational here I think is similar in thought to why Boltanski does his type of work. I also think a war in the Middle East is inevitable. When was the last time there was complete peace world-wide? And how long did it last? Not very long you can bet. Man was not made to get along. As much as I would like to see Utopia it will never happen. You’ve heard the phrase “if your not part of the solution then you are part of the problem”. So, yes I would agree that I am not helping the anti-war issue; I think that it is necessary.
When I look at Boltanski’s work I do think of the horrible statements he is making and the vast amount of suffering. But I don’t think of how can it be avoided (the war that is), I think that it is the cost of war and it is a necessary evil in demolishing another evil in order to promote peace.
I like what Boltanki has done, I agree with the images he presents as disturbing as they seem. If you think he is wrong in what he does you need to crawl out of the hole you’ve been hiding in and accept the fact that evil is part of today’s society and trying to hide from it is only a temporary solution.

Interview with a Dietician

The day gets going in the same usual manner as it does just about every day. I get into the office around 7:30 to check notes from the night before and see what kind of e-mails the nursing staff or doctors have sent to me. I will print my census sheet, the log of all the patients on the floor that includes their medical information, diagnosis, their current diet, goals and plan; basically their history since they were delivered into this world at St. Joe’s Hospital. These are the premature babies. They can’t breathe, eat or function by themselves because they came out to early, their respiratory and digestive systems are immature and very sensitive. It is up to me to make sure they get the required nutrition at this critical stage in their brand new lives.
Ann Lewis is a clinical dietician at St. Joe’s Hospital in Denver, Colorado. Her specialty is in the NICU, the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit. She received a BS in Clinical Dietetics from the State University of NY at Oneonta, completed an internship at the National Institute of Health in Washington, D.C. and studied in the graduate program at the University of Maryland in the Human Nutrition Department. Also, for the past 7 years she has been a private consultant for adults who have taken the step towards better health and a better life through a better diet. When she first moved to Denver she worked for 2 years at the Center for Human Nutrition assisting with research studies investigating reasons for human obesity.
Q: What is it that you do for people that approach you for a healthier diet?
A: Well, first of all, I get all types that come to me for a variety of reasons. The majority are middle-aged women who want to lose weight or are concerned with improving their health. They want to look better and feel better. They want to try diet before the begin medication for things such as high cholesterol.
What I strive to do for them is to take the focus off their weight. There is a broad spectrum of weight relative to your height that is still considered healthy. I want to focus on their motivation and goals, focus on their health and not their weight. I tell them that a healthy diet will reduce the risk of diabetes and heart disease. This is not a quick fix, it is a commitment and they have to understand it's long term. I have to get them to change their knowledge about their eating habits. The deep seeded knowledge they grew up with, those bad habits they did not think were bad have to change.
Q: How do they go about this change? What kind of program do you recommend?
A: Since this is a long-term goal there is no quick fix about it. I work in small increments, baby steps if you will. I don't want to shock them physically or psychologically. This way they are still able to enjoy what they used to, knowing that they have to begin cutting down on it and replacing it with something else.
Q: What are the worst aspects of the American diet?
A: It's something that is known as the Western Diet. It contains lots of red meat, saturated fats, high fat dairy products and processed foods. Those processed foods are pretty bad; they are anything that has been modified from its original form. The Western Diet is also high in sodium. I think it goes without saying that convenience is a major factor. Fast food is loaded with fat, sodium and especially calories. Not only are these foods high in calories, but they are easily accessible. We live in a society that is often in a hurry and does not take the time to eat better or they are lazy and go for convenience. Add that to a society that does not include regular physical activity and you have a recipe for flabbiness. We exceed caloric intake sometimes even doubling and tripling that on a daily basis.
"It's easier and cheaper to go to McDonalds than it is to buy fresh fruits and vegetables and prepare them yourself."
Q: How do we change their minds? How do we get people to understand that this lifestyle is too destructive, unhealthy and needs to change?
A: You have to start early, early as kindergarten. It is simple education that needs to be instilled in these kids at an early age.
"You have to start with the kids, most adults are already too far gone.”
The government needs to take the lead; it has to be a priority that the American society is not healthy. No society deserves that reputation. Physical education has to be brought back to the schools; parents should also put their kids on physical education programs at home. A well-rounded Nutritional Education program will put kids on the right track. Our free economy and capitalist society lets us eat when we want,there wasn’t the amount of readily available, high calorie foods decades ago. Government subsidized food that goes to schools is still poor quality, although the schools themselves are starting to take the initiative towards improving nutrition in their lunchrooms. Much like my philosophy for a single persons health, we will not see immediate results. It took the U.S. 50 years to get this fat; I think it should take another 50 to slim down a bunch.
Q: What has the government been doing lately to step up to the American plate and take responsibility for making a healthier America?
A: Clever use of words! There is a government agency, the National Cancer Institute, which initiated the "5-a-day" program in conjunction with the Produce for Better Health Foundation about a year ago. It promotes 5 vegetables or fruits a day. You'll see it primarily in schools and grocery stores, since it's inception they have decided to raise the 5 to 7-9 servings a day. It depends on who you are, your metabolism, age, weight and or/gender. You really can’t go overboard with fruits and vegetables. When was the last time you heard you husband, friend or 8 year old say, “Hey, can I get that broccoli super sized?” These programs take a long time because of the clinical research that has to take place; the results need to be proven. That’s why it will take quite some tome to get the U.S. back on track.
"What you put in your mouth affects your health, how you feel and your mental well being."
Q: What has happened to American lifestyles?
A: They have grown very sedentary. We have so many labor saving devices. Elevators and escalators speed up our day but keep us from routine activity that burns calories. Instead, we go to gym…if we decide to go. I see lots of people at work who are taking the elevator for 1, 2 or 3 floors. That exercise is so critically important but the thought of taking the steps to get exercise just doesn't enter their minds. We think that work is just for that, work. This needs to be a conscious decision and a daily commitment. General activity on a day-to-day basis has dropped. Kids need to be forced away from their computers and X-Box video games. Suburbs promote this sedentary activity; it's not an urban area that allows you to walk to the market or cinema. Parents need to structure their kids time so that it limits time in front of the computer and emphasizes outdoor physical activity.
Q: Finish this sentence. “When people think of dieting, they think of…?”
A: Sacrifice and restriction. I don’t believe in dieting. The problem with dieting is that it is perceived as temporary, that means you are either “on” or “off” your diet. When people think of dieting they think of going hungry and eating all those things that must be good for you because they taste bad.

Q: So what would you call it?
A: I would call it a lifestyle approach. A diet is a certain way of eating; dieting is a restrictive intake, which is what most people think of. When you are on one diet you are off another, this is the perception. It’s all or nothing and it sets people up for failure. There are 21 meals a week, what you are doing most of the time is what counts. People can’t look at themselves as alcoholics who feel like failures when they have one drink after weeks of abstinence. We don’t want to be completely on a diet, it’s too difficult. There has to be an in-between, a compromise that people need to follow. It’s like cheesecake. People are shocked to see me eat cheesecake. I tell them of course I eat it…just not everyday!
Q: You are quite skinny; do you practice what you preach?
A: Yes, most of the time. But that is the point of my philosophy. I am very active too.
Q: How does physical activity tie into all of this?
A: It’s unrealistic to think that you don’t have to exercise to maintain your weight. You have to come to terms with your exercise and realize that there is no “best” exercise. The one that you will do and do consistently is the best one for you. You have to identify that and incorporate it into your day or every other day.
Q: Why don’t Americans pay attention to their diets?
A: I think people are aware they just don’t pay attention to it. They were brought up not to and got into bad habits. They got married, had kids, work very hard; their lives got too busy.
Q: I have heard reports that 6 small meals are better than the standard “3 squares” that we all grew up with. Those meals we consume here in America 3 times a day have grown to ridiculous sizes at home and in the restaurants. Why is that?
A: Everything is big in America, from the state of Texas to our SUV’s. It’s how we as Americans look at life and success. So many want the big house with the big yard, or at least bigger than the Jones’ across the street. The American way is “bigger is better” and “more for less” is where it’s at. People don’t realize that they are not obligated to eat everything that is one their plate. The fast food companies are making this idea even more prevalent with their value sizing ad campaigns. “Come to my drive through window and for the same price you can get more than the place across the street”. Well you know what America, you don’t need more! You actually need less.
Q: What is it that you feel is the most important aspect of your business that you do that helps people?
A: So many people come to me and say, “I know what I need to do, I just can’t do it”. I provide structure, accountability and support. I am here to motivate and be realistic about their ideas and goals. I am the cheerleader and the ogre that encourages and at the same time provides discipline. People benefit from my expertise and troubleshooting. I am very good about observation of their lifestyle and how to decide what changes need to be made and how to implement them.
Q: Men vs. women, who is more self-conscious about there diet?
A: Women for sure are more self-conscious. We have an American standard that people feel they need to live up to. There are societal pressures that you have to conform to physical and beauty values.
Q: Last thing, if you could offer one piece of advice to people who are concerned about their weight and diet, what would it be?
A: Eat fruits, vegetables and exercise regularly. They are plain and simple rules to follow for a better health.

Writing I

Writing has never been something that I have done or wanted to do voluntarily, reading also, but not to such an extent. As a child I was often unsupervised so I watched a ridiculous amount of television. My mom would kick me out of the house and tell me to go play but very rarely would she tell me to read a book. Between the excess TV, lack of Ritalin and a surplus of sugar I developed a classic case of ADD. Over the years I have realized that reading and writing are a necessity and should not be viewed as the hassle that I used to think of them as. I have accepted them and put forth goals that require me to read and write for the purpose of gaining knowledge on subjects of my choice. Furthermore, acknowledging that ADD and making the effort to conquer it has helped substantially in my efforts to remain in front of my computer, a magazine or book for more than 15 minutes at a time. I've wanted to write so that I can convey information in a sensible, reliable and matter of fact format. I've wanted to tell a story that is cohesive, has a body that leads the reader down a road with somewhat clear directions but leaving room for interpretation and speculation.
My writing philosophy has a few aspects, but most important to me are the facts that are presented that inform about an event, person or place. The other is the story that tells of who, when, where and most significantly "why". I want to write in a manner that matches what I like to read. I prefer non-fiction, I like the facts that support who a person, place or event are defined by. However, after saying that, it will be strange to hear that my favorite film genre is science fiction.
Writing has induced an unusual type of creativity and I feel that it has begun a process that will pair my visual creativity with textual. I have always told stories through photography and recently decided to supplement a certain set of images with my own thoughts, lyrics and quotes appropriate to the imagery. One thing this accomplishes is that it slows the viewer down and gives them more insight into the image through the text and insight into the text via the image. There are certain elements throughout my life that I desire and require. It is that form of structure that has paved the way for me to develop a better understanding of what I like to write about as well as how. I have always thought about my photography leading the way and my writing to be something that complimented the imagery. This may be true as far as artist statements and exhibitions go but in the editorial world it seems to be opposite. Fantastic imagery should support a story, but no matter how great those photos may be, a shitty story is still shitty, and it may in fact bring those photos down with it.
There are hurdles placed in front of us everyday of our lives. It is our choice to prioritize those hurdles and chose which ones we attempt to conquer for our own specific, individual reasons. Sometimes we have a choice and other times we have to jump that hurdle whether we want to or not. In the end one thing becomes clear, if we do not even attempt those hurdles, we know that without putting forth the effort that we will never know what we are capable of attaining.

Restaurant Review: The 9th Door, Denver

"More Than 9 Reasons to Visit the 9th Door"
The 9th Door is one of the many new restaurants in Denver that have plenty in common with its competition; a LoDo location, an impeccable interior with hardwoods and indirect lighting along with fabulous food. Its theme is what separates it from the others. The Spanish theme of "tapas" has been around for centuries and much like the idea of what is "American" the three owners who put the 9th Door together have provided a fantastic fusion of food, drinks and ambiance.
The "tapa", which translates to "cover", is part tradition and part purpose. A slice of meat and/or cheese was used to cover the wine glass for two reasons. One was to keep insects from falling into the wine glass but also to nourish the imbibing participant. It is also simply put, a snack between the larger meals of the day.
My friend Ann and I came into the 9th Door for happy hour on a Friday afternoon. As one of the first few customers it wasn't long before the bar area was teaming with business people and a hip thirty-something crowd. I love the "appetizer" style menu so much because of the immense variety it provides. The 9th Door puts them out quickly; it is advisable to keep the menu at hand so that you can visually pair your food with what you have ordered. We found it suitable to keep our bartender busy by ordering tapas two at a time, it gave us the opportunity to relax and not become overwhelmed with dishes.
Death, taxes and ordering calamari if its on the menu, those are the things I absolutely have to do. Calamares Friotos a la Romana ($7) was delivered fried to perfection with an aioli, spicy tomato and a customary tomato sauce. This was the only item not on the happy hour menu but worth every oily penny. Tostas Pistos ($2), or bruschetta with artichoe, garlic and olive oil is a staple product while drinking. It is also one of those items that many restaurants carry and therefore a graet factor for comparison. Aceitunas Rellenos ($2) are Spanish olives stuffed with tuna then flash-fried. Salty, fishy and fried…refer back to the calamari thing. Queso de Cabra Con Miel ($3) or fried goat cheese with honey needed no introduction when placed in front of us. No sooner was the plate motionless than these crispy little globes of satisfaction were satisfying my palette. Esparagos con Jamon ($3), grilled asparagus with Serrano ham and Cabrales cheese sauce briefly made me feel good about my eating habits because of the green vegetable in this dish. However I am a relatively firm believer in moderation…most of the time…except when I am out to dinner…or drinking. The cured ham and cheese sauce compliment each other so well; and cold cooked asparagus will rival any green spear dish served hot. Mejillones ($4), otherwise known as mussels, have become a restaurant tradition differing only in the broth it is served with, this one happened to be a tasti-licious spicy tomato style.
We all have accidents that can make our day unpleasant, but when other people take note of that and do something about it, that makes you feel special. When Ann dropped her knife the first employee that noticed it immediately, picked it up and replaced it. I overheard the chef talking to the food runners, he made mention that the plates going out needed the same quality every time. It's nice to know that the dedication to detail and enthusiasm in presentation exists. The bartenders are my favorite at the restaurants, they are the most well rounded and knowledgeable about the whole place in general. Their specialty is mine…liquor! They also have the ability to be a bit more informal than the wait staff; they "get away with" more pertaining to what they can say and do with the customers. The bartenders Sid and Jason know that and as I started to play the game they played right back. I am not there to test but to have a good honest conversation about the establishment, food and beverage in general and laugh about current events. Don't be fooled by the 5 gallon glass containers on the bar, that's not vodka or rum stewing in orange and apple slices, it's the Spanish original…Sangria! The white is such an incredibly refreshing change for those aren't familiar with it.
I know it's only a $3 dollar drink during happy hour, but when the bartender says, "I got one round for you", it can't help but put a bigger smile on your face. It ensures that I will be back often and will also tell my friends they should visit for an enjoyable and tasteful experience.

Review: “American Flyers”, February 2006, Outside Magazine

I’ve been skiing since I was two and have been a fan of ski racing since about 1980 (Lake Placid). In 1984 Phil Mahre won the overall Men’s World Cup, since then the Europeans have dominated the sport. It wasn’t until the last few years that the Americans have been a contender and last season the New Hampshire native Bode Miller won the World Cup.
This article, written by Bruce Barcott, not only deals with the controversial Miller but also the rise of the US Ski Team, the factors that got them to where they are now and what they desire to accomplish in Italy this February. Barcott develops a story with several flashbacks; he uses historical reference to support the ideas and events that are explaining the path of athletes and coaches from the 80’s and 90’s to the present day.
I enjoy how he draws on the events of the individual (see page 60, 2nd paragraph) with their words and actions to bring the viewer into the scene. You are able to grasp that mentality and vocation of a 21-year-old hotdog skier through personal description and photography. Barcott also describes when necessary the fashion and language of certain people that helps the reader form a better depiction and opinion. He also provides plenty of technical information. As easy as it was for me to understand I am aware that there may be a lot of people who do not comprehend any of these disciplines and need that explanation. That is accomplished in a very concise yet thorough manner.
Barcott’s use of analogies that tie skiers to well-known and established Hollywood movies and professional sports teams provides a solid understanding of his concept. He uses the “Bad News Bears” and the New York Yankees as examples. I believe that these examples work well because I think that most of the audience that is reading this article is older. Probably 30 and above who know the original “Bad News Bears” with Walter Matthau and who doesn’t know what the Yankees have been up to over the past decade.
He provides plenty of background material throughout that sets the stage as well as fills the reader in on things like tension and rivalry between countries or a skiers childhood.
One big issue in this article is the sponsorship and money that gets a team going and keeps it running. He goes into detail about the one person responsible for that. He demonstrates what it’s like to be a great American skier but barely scraping by while the Austrians are driving Porsche.
Barcott appeals to our sense of grief by generating hope and faith because these athletes have struggled for so long and went underappreciated. He presents them in their newfound glory with a presence that cannot be denied.
Overall, I think this article was very well written. It is supported throughout with stories, names, dates and events. He flashes back often to remind us about certain people and why they are at a spot right now in their lives. He describes very well a sport that many Americans only know exist every fourth year. He develops a willingness to understand the people involved and the situation so that the public after reading this article will be cheering a great deal harder for this February.

"To 2nd Hand Smoke or Not to 2nd Hand Smoke"

I don't mind your disgusting habits.
Do you care that you’re killing yourself slowly each and every day?
I don't mind if you don't.
Don't you care that your breath stinks?
I don't mind if you don't.
Don't you care that your clothes reek?
I don't mind if you don't.
It's your life and your choice.
I do mind however when I have to be subjected to it. Your smoking is detrimental to your health and completely voluntary. The only person holding a gun to your head, or more accurately to your mouth, is YOU!
This article by Pete Marcus focuses on the upcoming smoking ban and how it will affect businesses that have to cease their current smoking policy. My argument is that if the restaurant is non-smoking, the smokers can still step outside for a cig, the future cancer patient has an option. They can still enjoy dinner at their choice of restaurant. But if it is a smoking restaurant, the non-smoker has to subject themselves to known carcinogenics. I understand this is a free country and you should be able to smoke where you please…or at least it used to be that way. The other part of my argument regards the health and safety of the individual, which is why America and other nations are moving towards a non-smoking society.
I have had the conversation with smokers and non-smokers several times. Why is it that people believed that cigarettes and drinking are a natural combination? They think that the first alcoholic drink mankind every swallowed was accompanied by a cigarette. Smokers can play the card that states, "society has accepted over the past century that smoking and drinking go together". I will concur with them. I will also say that Hollywood for a long time glamorized the smokers in movies, it was cool to smoke then and in some circles now it still is cool. That was a long time ago before health studies concluded the ill effects of nicotine. Since society has said that it is cool to smoke, it is now saying that it is not. We are at a pivotal time that change is inevitable, and there will be people opposed to that change.
Drinking in moderation is fine; in fact the occasional glass of red wine aids digestion and has been proven healthy. I don't recall any study that has found "a cig a day keeps the doctor away". Perhaps it has something to do with people telling other people what they should and should not do, especially if it's the government commanding you to do or not do something in particular. I think people in general want that feeling of power; they would rather give orders instead of taking them. For example, I was riding the bus the other day seated up front close to the driver. A salty middle age female with a scowl that would make Ghengis Khan proud began to exit the bus. The driver let out a typical pre-programmed statement, "Have a nice day". She turned her head and fired back to him, "Don't tell ME what to do!"
I had one guy actually tell me that if I don't like the smoke, then I shouldn't go to those places. Why should I be limited to my choice of restaurant because people there choose to live an unhealthy lifestyle? Why is it that they think it is ok to subject others to cancer causing agents that they freely accept? Let's think about this, no more smoking on planes. No more smoking in public buildings. No smoking within 20 feet of the entrance of a building. No smoking while you are waiting in line to get into a theatre. Have you noticed that the smokers complain vehemently because they have to walk 10 to 30 yards perhaps to step outside and smoke? Why is that such an inconvenience? Get your lazy, overweight, soon be heart diseased ass off the barstool and go outside.
The cover shot for this article is a few people with a sign that reads,"Marlee Restaurant and Lounge, a neighborhood bar has been a smoking bar since 1957. Why change now!!" Perhaps these people come out of their caves occasionally to go to work and obviously to go to the Marlee Restaurant and Lounge for their recommended daily allowance of nicotine. When or what does it take to get these people to read the writing on the wall? They can't see the writing through that thick plume of dirty air. The cancer developing in their hearts and lungs must also be causing glaucoma.
There is a trend of non-smoking that is not only included in the US in major metropolitan areas or health conscious cities like Boulder, smoking has been banned in public places in Ireland since March of 2004. England has rules on smoking enacted by the Health department (did you hear that, a governmental agency that is looking out for your health). Smoking in cabs is not permitted as well as sporting events that have a "substantially enclosed area". In fact, even though Chicago area restaurants have until 2008 to allow smoking, some are banning it voluntarily. And restaurants that have imposed the ban said that they have not seen a change in their business. I understand that Denver is not Chicago and the Marlee is a small neighborhood "mom and pop" kind of place. It seems that the trend for non-smoking begins with the higher end restaurants and is working it's way down to the more casual places that perhaps one day find it's way to the "dives" where alcohol, smoke, depression and emphysema go hand in hand.
Thank you I think the smokers will not do anytime soon. In 5-10 years a healthier America will wonder how smoking was ever allowed in restaurants.

Review: Pearl Jam, Pepsi Center, Denver, April 1, 2003

I overheard this statement sitting at the bar: "I went to a political rally last night and a Pearl Jam concert broke out!" Ed Vedder, lead singer, and crew always live up to their name of rocking hard and taking advantage of stardom to express political opinion. This past Tuesday was no exception. The Pepsi Center was the stage for the opening act of the North American leg of Pearl Jams 2003 concert tour.
The slow opening of “Love Boat Captain” paved the way with anticipation into the ever so hard-hitting “Hail, Hail”. The sound was fantastic throughout the arena and the bands performance was flawless. Perhaps the fact that it was the opening show, they felt as though a bit of extra effort was required. They played a mix of songs from Yield, Ten, Binaural and many from the new album Riot Act. Oddly enough Ticket master was not a target this evening, it was the War in Iraq. Half way through the 1st encore Vedder put on a rubber George Bush mask and started in “Bu$hleaguer”. The crowd was divided on his stance, half going crazy, the other half standing there. Pearl Jam is setting a new standard for recording live venues; they have pioneered a new style that provides for near studio quality. They began recording all of theirs shows in the spring of 2003. If you access their website you can search by date, city, browse set lists and order what you like. Within one week I had a copy of this Denver show. I think it is great because not only do you get the music but also the commentary by the band and the crowd reaction throughout the concert.
These guys have a tremendous ability to play acoustic and slow the tempo down. Ed Vedder’s voice is unmistakable whether he’s screaming “Evolution” or crooning to the ever-popular “Wishlist”. "Black" has always been known as a song with deep rooted personal and emotional trauma and Vedder rarely sang it in concert, I was very surprised to hear “Black” in their encore. Pearl Jam ended the show appropriately; bringing the politically divided crowd back together with Neil Young’s “Rockin’ in a Free World”. It was a fantastic performance, look for this or any of their recent shows on CD at their website.

Critical Mass, Denver, June 2006






The Denver Police won't let Critical Mass get out of 1st gear while cities worldwide accept the bicyclists like the French countryside in July. Critical Mass takes place on the last Friday of the month; it's not so much a group of bikers as it is a group of people riding bikes. You might think that a bike friendly, environmental place like Denver would support this activity, the community supports it...the police and the mayor do not.

It was my first ride with Critical Mass this past June 2006. The group organizes at Civic Center Park around 6pm; they discuss routes, traffic, do's and don'ts, police action, how to be courteous to public transportation, etc. They then begin to pedal around the fountain and pool at Civic Center Park, a signal that it is getting to the point of departure. Lap after lap they pedal; the cruisers, single speeds, fixed gear, Schwinns from decades ago, banana seats, 10 speeds and 3 speeds. It's eye candy galore for those of us that view a bicycle as much more than transportation (see my entry "Personal Significance"). The bikes are a statement about the person who rides them, they are personalized and detailed similar to a motorcycle, car and even what you might do with your living room.

It didn't help the cause or my situation when I showed up with two of Denver's motorcycle police officers in tow. Seems that even though my vision may be 20/20 those police officers blend in very well, they must teach them camouflage techniques at the academy. As a bicyclist, I think most of the time that if I run a red light I am pretty much just putting my self in danger (look for a future entry "7 Stitches and the Dumb Things Dave Does on a Bike"), cars on the other hand put others in danger. I am not trying to justify my actions; I know I ran that light; there is no "PINK" or "RELLOW" traffic light. But it was a placid Friday night in Denver; I had perfect vision of traffic left and right of me, so I pedaled through the intersection. About ¾ of the way through, an SUV passes me. If I ran this light, this guy really ran it! Like I said earlier, there is no gray area here, you are either pregnant or you are NOT pregnant! Both of us are guilty. I pull up to the guy at the next light and motion to roll down his window in order to have a polite exchange of ideas regarding the previous traffic light. He shakes his head "no", I point my finger (not the middle one) and shake my head. The light goes to green and as he takes off those motorcycle officers pass me and pull him over. YEAH! I leave the scene and head over to Civic Center Park a few minutes later and pull up with…you guessed it, those same two officers on my tail. It went something like this:
PO: "You know you ran that light. It was just as red for that guy as it was for you."
DE: "Yes officer I know, I apologize"
That was about it, he gave me a stern look and that was the end of it.

The group of about 150 pedals through downtown Denver at a leisurely 5 MPH pace. Obeying traffic laws as best they can and splitting up when lights turn red. They always keep one lane of traffic open when it is possible so that they don't hold up traffic. The police need their room to get by also. After 45 minutes or so I thought about how this scene resembled a western cattle drive; the bikes as the cattle and the police on their iron horses keeping us in check, rounding us up. How apropos for a town that's biggest draw is the Western Stock Show and a football team with a wild stallion as its mascot.

I was photographing this event and was trying to be very careful about where I was and how I got there. The end of the group usually had a police car and a few motorcycles, they didn't approve of me riding among them. I captured a few frames from the corner, started pedaling again and got stuck with the police officers. One of them rode up to me and said "Don't ride with us, ride with them." I know these people are doing their jobs and it takes a certain person to be law enforcement and I am not criticizing anyone, I am criticizing their technique. The motorcycles followed and boxed us in at very close range, some within the group felt dangerously close. They also accelerated for one reason or another to speeds past the posted speed limit that would put them in the midst of a pack of riders traveling at 1/6 their speed. It felt like high school prom with a chaperone tethered tightly to your side. I think 6 or so tickets were handed out that night, primarily for running red lights at 5 MPH or failure to signal. In other cities like San Francisco where Critical Mass originated the bikes stay together as one mass. When the light turns red they keep moving and vehicular traffic now with the right of way stays put. From what I understand, the police will get in front of the mass in order to hold up traffic and keep the mass safe.

Google "Critical Mass" if you want to learn more about how this ride operates in other cities. I am not sure why Denver does not want to cooperate but it seems as though they want to take the air out of the sails, I mean tires, of Critical Mass Denver. I'll see you July 28th at Civic Center Park. Strength in numbers! -DE